calling my angels...

it is that point of your career when you feel like cursing for all the things that you missed out (atleast it seems so...) knowing fully well that wen the time comes it is going to cost you dear. and all these days i was procrastinating to the extreme which in a way could have prevented all this from being repeated. again i have messed up or rather i shud say i have fallen short of my expectations. the latter would be more apt provided i take this exercise to redefine my capabilities and improvement areas.

i havent felt so desperate in my life, my heart saying go for it and my mind refusing to cooperate. it has happened to me in the past, what makes it so difficult is that it is barely 48 hours to the beginning of final placement and i am still convincing my mind that some amount of preparation would land me in a big company. adding to this desperation, am really pissed off at the scene for the finance people like us who have a very few options from which to choose.

trying to get around this problem...am pretty much ok....i know i need a jerk..like the one which happened in patni gd...just have an inkling that this carefree attitude will prove to be costly for me...thank god IBM happened...or else it would have been a one hell of a time for me...

this will pass...very soon...:)