this is my fourth attempt in the past fortnight to make a entry into this blog. hope this turns out to be fruitful. life is going on as usual. my health problems have decreased a bit...sometime last week all of a sudden the headache got slightly worse and i sort of got panicky and then i searched the net for that ***** disease and i came up with some startling findings... like the thing was only curable thru surgery and it had some disturbing symptoms etc etc etc. and the for the next two days i felt like i wud commit suicide at any moment. but then i seemed to adjust myself to these new state of affairs very soon and have got used to these nightmarish scenarios. my guru definitely helped me out during those days when he made me believe in the power of reiki and healed & prayed for my wellness. else i wud like to forget this episode as one bad dream.

these days i spend most of the time trying to go through some material on finance. i madly want to learn finance by some way or the other and i feel that i am trailing in this race to get a decent job in the fin domain. my emphasis has been primarily to brush up my basics in corporate finance before trying to step on a higher plane like understanding the financial system of india and the functioning of the capital markets. i am not happy with the kind of forward movement that i have made, but it is normal for these frustrations to build up. this is always the case as my results always exceed the expectations heavily. i have taken 5 subjects on finance this semester out of the 7 i am allowed to take, so i am like pursuing finance as a major very seriously.

i dont know when i got this habit of postponing my rendezvous with this blog but this has been going on for the past one month. maybe i was not sure as to what i will write it over here. or maybe i wanted to become a master communicator(one of those dreams of mine) before getting down to penning my thoughts into words. but the thing is i am not happy with myself. with the way i have been handling things. what shall i say..i am betraying myself....on the one hand i want to be a master in finance both at micro and macro level...but i take no pains in trying to do something to improve my understanding of finance. i am laggin behind others, that is obvious from the ground realities. i want to understand myself and i thought that maybe this blog will help in achieving this objective. will continue this blog tomm...