State of mind: confused

life has never been easy and kind to me.

maybe i asked more and more of myself and my expectations always outnumbered my abilities. this is where my fundamental doubts creep in. am i overestimating myself or is it just that there is a lack of coordination or what should i say a subliminal link between my conscious and subconscious brain which is making me feel aimless. i was oblivious of all these things till the time i realised sometime last month that i am wasting my time away since my subconscious mind was not supporting the desires and needs of my conscious mind. the minute i came to understand this i have started my efforts in....am damn busy...will continue this some other day...

yahoo!!!...my business is finally up and running thx to my friend cum partner's great **********. i didnt expect it to happen so soon. the page hits is going to touch 3000 very soon and the new customer queries are slowly trickling in. the only worry remains that i am still not got that hang of the stock markets which in one way expresses my inability to contribute to the service offerings and depend on my partner friend. and another of those things that has been occupying my mind space in the recent past is the mode of advertising. and i have concluded that email is the cheapest and the most practical model in the present circumstances where we are facing a funds crunch and lack of manpower. i have been spending around 15 hours in a week towards this business that gives rise to the apprehensions it might affect my academics as my business expands and the clientele grows to necessitate more of documentation and operational hassles.

didnt expect it to happen so soon. i would say it as a matter of great luck that our service offerings were well received and well timed with the market. but i need to start searching for some funds to finance my dream plans to make it on par with moneycontrol and indiainfoline. i have to look into the systems part as well which is very crucial to this business model and i have to find a reliable person to take charge of this function.

good times i guess. cudnt have asked for more.

as regards my academics things are goin on fine except that i am not finding time these days to explore the areas and subjects which are being taught in this term. i have had to be contented with the class room teaching inspite of the fact that my listening and concentration skills are the worst among the batch. but still i have learnt a lot as regards the macro structure of the financial system plus the portfolio management and valuation of fixed income securities. i am enjoying my tryst with this area of management and i do hope that it plays a complementary role in being able to apply my intellectual capital to widen the service offerings of my website.will write more when i find time...these days am a lot busy...not even getting a decent 6hr sleep...