it has been 7 months since the last post of mine...lot of time has passed by...nd lot of things in my world have changed drastically....the innings at reliance has been mixed bag of experience...there are some things which i still cherish in these six months...like the gala welcome that we got when we joined the company...the induction programme...nd then royal treatment that the whole bunch of senior management is giving us....there are some bad things as well...the friction with my senior which was uncalled for...which i wud say is a product of reliance culture and the way things work over here...nd then at point my frustration which my work profile nd the chaotic work environment...i still vaguely remember how i walked in to my boss room nd told him ki i wanted to speak to him personally...i vented out my frustration nd every word that i uttered to my boss had this implicit truth that i was on the verge of quitting the company...nd at the end of the day..i didnt...i still dont know if it was a wise decision...i feel it is too early to decide some drastic...rather i keep telling myself that i shud get used to work in this kind of environment...coz it will help me in the long run...atleast in realising the value of management in the long run...there arent any answers...i knw..it is more of a mental confusion....too much education spoils the peace of our mind...isnt it??

i thoroughly enjoyed my initial months in makers and tulsiani...all the management trainees worked from there...so in those terms..comfort level was always there right from the initial days...nd i made a hell lot of friends...life was rather smooth...rather i was having one heck of a great time there...freaking out for lunches with people...and then endless bakar in the canteen during the evenings...i just wish those days came back again...how much i loved them...nd freaking out to all sorts of places during weekends...moments to cherish forever....

had a tough time searching for a flat....initially i thought i wud move in with sagare...but then i got this strong feelin ki things wont work out with him and major...so finally moved in with potti...nd senthil too joined us...the flat was decent...nd spacious...half my sundays during my initial months were spent on setting up things in our flat...nd after a endless deliberation we finally decided to go in for a fridge nd a tv...nd it seems that it is paying off well...i got along well with potti nd senthil...except for some initially misunderstandings...things worked out fine...had one heck of a great time with senthil...those late night discussions with senthil...bitching abt colleagues...nd then gossiping abt girls in our workplace...nd then pulling his legs...nd subjecting him to torture of a different kind...playing all those remix songs at the full decibel....there are thousand other things...we got along very well...majorly because he cud subject himself to my stupid sense of humour nd my quirky way of thinking...lol...nd then one fine day...senthil left me fending myself all alone..he moved into a new flat...his contention...he needed a room for himself...it has been a long time since...i have had very rare instances of having those long bakars...but wenever i catch up with him during commute or in the office...i dont let him go so easily...nd now he is leaving for bangalore....there is a void...nd lets see if i have someone else to fill that up...:)..ofcourse potti is there...the man of principles...the one man who feels women are to be loved not to be lusted for...:))..i completely agree....lol..that sums it up i guess...he too is keepin busy with wat he calls a steady relationship...(friendship is wat he defines it..)...with some punjabi kudi..:)....he has been a great flatmate of mine....

commuting back nd forth to office has been a pain right from day one...it had to be...mumbai is known for that...there were times wen i wud feel so frustrated..ofcourse i am helpless...some compromises ought to be made...nd i can always do away with a comfortable life...have somehow managed for half the year...nd looks like i can survive some more time over here before giving it up...:)

initial days i felt a lot homesick..because i could feel the pinch of living this life all alone with no relatives or no close friends..but have got used to it slowly...that is why i went to chennai in july nd again during diwali...but now it seems like i can manage it..waise i do miss my family at times...but this has to be it....some compromises ought to be made...my family is calling me back...but am not planning to go...am living my life over here to the fullest...

so all was going well...wen i decided finally ki enuf was enuf nd i planned to switch a different vertical...i had a lot of deliberation with my colleagues and the MTs...nd then i decided to take the plunge...it was one week of full tension...i dont know...watever had to happend just happened...

so here i am in worli...sitting in a cabin...yup...my boss has given me a nice little cabin till the time the original owner comes back...nd for the first time i have no work in hand..so thought it the best time to again start blogging...life has been kind of hectic over here...last week our team had the presentation with the chairman and head of retail business...nd i was given responsibility to put it all together..nd i had 3 days...to run after the dozen or so teams to submit things..and then making a 100 slide ppt...it all went well..my boss was happy...except that he said ki i must improve my standards of ppt making skills...wat else i cud in such a short notice...:)

some random thoughts running at the back of my mind...one...my life's purpose...i dont know if it is going to hold water after 3-4 years...sometimes i feel lost out..coz am not able to connect to it at times...or is it just a facade or a mask of selflessness...i really dont know....nd i at times am skeptic if the corporates are goin to add any value to me...two...relationships...my failure in keeping up with them...all these days nd years i have always yearned for good friends for me to keep company...but now at this point of time..i feel ki i have had so many people coming into my life...but it was me who never tried to build up or carry forward the relationship further...nd this new office..i have hardly any friends...coz i dont have a team as such...three...am i enjoying my life to the fullest...this has been running at the back of my mind for the past three days...this is because things have changed a lot since my nariman point days...am spending more time at work...commuting is hellish nd takes up a lot of time...nd then spend the rest of time reading boooks...four...something needs to be done abt my physique..better late than never...i have been on the receiving end with people making all sorts of comments on my build...i just wish i cud put on some kilos of weight for me to look better....

i found this below quote in a website...good one..

"A friend is someone who will catch you when you fall, dry your tears and tell you it will be all right, pretend to be happy just to cheer you up, never leave you by yourself, attempt to talk to you at least once a day no matter what, make you laugh when you're sad, call back if you hang up on them, make everything you two do together into something fun no matter how boring it is, always remind you of your inside jokes, finish your sentences, think the same way you do, follow you wherever you go, stop you from doing something stupid or hurting yourself, and they're always willing to give up something that means a lot to them because they can be sure you'll always be there in return, and because to them you'll always mean more than you can imagine."