End of a painful chapter in my life...

two roads diverged in a wood, and I - I took the one less traveled by, and i hope that will make all the difference.
- Robert Frost

The above quote sums up the what surprisingly was an easy decision for me..IBM was an tempting offer for me...and it also promised me a fat pay package...but still i went in for reliance over rpg and ibm...i know the reasons...this is what i had wanted right from the time i got in here....hope i have a good time out there in reliance...

away from home will be difficult....will continue this some other day...:)

calling my angels...

it is that point of your career when you feel like cursing for all the things that you missed out (atleast it seems so...) knowing fully well that wen the time comes it is going to cost you dear. and all these days i was procrastinating to the extreme which in a way could have prevented all this from being repeated. again i have messed up or rather i shud say i have fallen short of my expectations. the latter would be more apt provided i take this exercise to redefine my capabilities and improvement areas.

i havent felt so desperate in my life, my heart saying go for it and my mind refusing to cooperate. it has happened to me in the past, what makes it so difficult is that it is barely 48 hours to the beginning of final placement and i am still convincing my mind that some amount of preparation would land me in a big company. adding to this desperation, am really pissed off at the scene for the finance people like us who have a very few options from which to choose.

trying to get around this problem...am pretty much ok....i know i need a jerk..like the one which happened in patni gd...just have an inkling that this carefree attitude will prove to be costly for me...thank god IBM happened...or else it would have been a one hell of a time for me...

this will pass...very soon...:)

MBA over..hopefully....

am feeling a bit melancholic...dont know i had the same feeling when i filled in the farewell book comments for my batchmates last week...the same sinking feeling..i am going to miss them all and ofcourse all the excitement that i got to experience all these 20 months. in the end it seems that it was worth it. except as my friend described aptly that the icing on the cake still remains...placements. lets hope we have a fitting finale.

a fulfilment of another dream...it just made me wonder if i am on the path i had so badly wanted to pursue...looking back this is what i feel would have been a ideal life for me till now...
taking science group in XIth std...getting into an IIT....spend 4 years there...then get into Indian Army become a captain...then retire...work in an corporate for 3 years...get into an IIM .....by this time this would have been made me the kind of person to take on this world and be a force behind a major social change......seriously life would have been a bit more interesting and exciting..

wish it had happened...wishes are just wishes...except for IIM-K nothing else kind of happened....there is a long story to back up these shortfalls..:)

atlast feeling sleepy...so this ends it.....let me refresh my wish list..

~authoring a book(on wat??...pata nahi...am groping in the dark..:))
~becoming a freelancer to Economic Times ~Trekking a 5000ft high mountain
~learning to play guitar
~a post graduate degree from london school of economics maybe 8 yrs from now.
~a wife of my type(hope my prayers all these months dont go waste..)

aur bhi bahut hai...aur koi din..aur koi kaaran..the below quote sums up my mood..

I'm gonna touch the sky
And I spread these wings and fly
I ain't here to play
I'm gonna live my life everyday